I think I got it now. I do all these relatively small projects to postpone the end of a big one. Deepest Love by Mirabilia. I have been working on this mermaid since early 2006. Right now I only need to add a few missing stitches (lips, etc) and the backstitch, and then add the beads. I must admit, I am kinda scared of the beading. Never done it before. After devoting three years of my life to work on this piece, I don't wanna ruin it with inadequate bead work.
I'm a little afraid to wash it too. I always tried to store it properly and always wash my hands before stitching, but three years is three years, and I was petrified to see how dirty the middle part is, you know, where I started to add my stitches. It even comes through in the photos and scans I have made of it.
Finally, I just don't think I can let go of this project yet. Does it sound silly to you? It's like a closing of an era. Maybe it's because of my upcoming divorce. I'm just not ready for so many changes in my life. Living alone, being single officially, probably a new job AND not having DL in my WIP stash is too much to take.